Junior year- Dated two girls that year, both of those relationships never lasted longer then 2 weeks. One broke up with me because we never rly had anything in common, only over myspace…not in person. then hooked up with this guy i suspected she liked 3 days later. The other girl im still friends with and my best friend is dating her, which i have no problem with, hes a good guy. we broke up because her dad was racist, im latino.
Senior year(now)- Met this girl Ashley ___. My friend Ian introduced her to me, and things were pretty great. But i learned later that she had really abusive parents who didnt give a rats ass about her at all. Forgetting her bday, neglecting everything she did, overall, horrible parents. But yet, she still shined, positive and optimistic. I felt extremely sorry for her, and told her i would do anything to help her, anything, but eventually things got worse. She was kicked out of her house, and sent to a foster home for kids whose parents are either abusive or extremely neglectful of their children. I told her if she ever needed anything, ANYTHING, a home, food, or just someone to be there for her, i would help her without any hesitation. i really liked her, and eventually, asked her out on the phone, she said she like me 2, and she would go out with me, i was rly happy. But then, her "friend" Alex randomly walks up and kisses her out of nowhere, leaving her confused over who she should date. (he had classes with her, 3, i didnt have any). Alex wrote literally 4 -5 notes a day about how much he wanted her and liked her in class, which i never knew about.I got her a valentines day gift, flowers and a teddy bear, and never really knew she was dating him until that day, i was completely clueless for a month, making a fool of myself by still flirting with her and acting like nothing changed.Eventually, Ashley had to move to St. Petersburg(hour and a half drive) because her foster home here wasnt working out, and she would do better up there, away from her parents. We said goodbye, it was awkward, but i gave her my number and house address and told her if she ever needed anything, she should call me. Alex and her are still together, doing the long distance thing.
Now- Last few months until schools over, and i go to college. I met this 1 girl over the internet, her name is Colleen___. We talked for about 2 weeks, and things were great, we connected well, flirted ALOT, and then decided to hang out, which was last wednsday. She brought her sister along, and pretty much talked to her the entire time, ignoring me while i sat at the back of the car while we drove to random places. She never talked to me directly the entire time, i tried to make conversation with her, but it never lasted for more than 2 minutes before she went to go talk to her sister again, ignoring me. I talked to her sister more then i did her. After we hung out, she hasnt been talking to me as much anymore. The texting stopped. The IM’s stopped, and things were awkward. Now, the flirtiness is gone, and everytime i try and talk to her, she never really replies or just unenthusiastically replies. The feeling is pretty much gone. Shes in Georgia right now, visiting her family.
So…here i am. 18 years old, listening to My Curse by Killswitch Engage, typing some story that i cant believe your still reading right now. I dont know how many times ive looked at this same moon,this same sky, and thought, Why? As i reflect upon everything thats happaned, every event thats come my way good or bad, i just cant understand why things turn out the way they did. I wonder, what if. What if i would have been more caring, what if i could have been more confident, what if i could have tried harder. I dont know what im saying, and your probably bored or either irritated by all this writing i have in this question, or why i would post something like this in the first place. Well, sometimes…it just makes you feel good to know someone is listening out there. Blahh, nevermind, forget i mentioned it. Im getting me some Fresca.
btw…this COULD be based off personal experience…Idk…il leave you to believe whether thats true or not.
Popularity: 2% [?]